CAME UNDONE
2006-10-07, 12:18 a.m.

TONIGHT WAS PROBABLY MY WORST NIGHT EVER. IT CERTAINLY IS THE FIRST TIME I HAVE EVER LOST TOTAL CONTROL. IT WAS STUPID OF ME AND IT MADE ME LOOK 3 X's WORSE THAN IF IT WERE JUST 2 INMATES FIGHTING.
MY LAST NIGHT ON BEFORE MY 2 DAYS OFF, WE HAD TO DO A SHAKEDOWN ON ANY CELL. I CHOSE A CELL THAT HAD 2 NEW PEOPLE IN IT BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE AN EASY SEARCH.
FUCK NO, SURE THE CELL DIDN'T HAVE MUCH IN IT, BUT THE ONE GIRL CAME OUT FIGHTING AND SCREAMING WHEN SHE DISCOVERED THAT SHE WAS REQUIRED TO HAVE A COMPLETE STRIP SEARCH OF HER BODY.
AFTER THE STRIP WAS COMPLETED SHE CALLED ME A BITCH. I TURNED AROUND AND ASKED HER WHAT SHE CALLED ME? SHE SAID, "YOU HEARD ME, YOUR A FUCKING BITCH!" SHE THEN PRECEEDED IN TAKING A STEP TOWARDS ME, WHICH ONLY MADE ME STEP TOWARDS HER. I THEN TOLD HER TO WATCH HER MOUTH, THAT IF SHE CONTINUES TALKING TO ME LIKE THAT, I'LL WRITE HER UP.
SHE THEN WENT CRAZY, RANTING AND RAVING ABOUT HOW I DON'T SCARE HER, THAT I CAN'T POSSIBLY MAKE THINGS WORSE THAN WHAT THEY ALREADY ARE FOR HER.
BUT DURING THE COURSE OF HER TIRADE, SHE HAD SPIT SPLATTERING ON MY FACE, AND I OF COURSE HAD NO RECOURSE BUT TO WRITE HER NASTY ASS UP.

WHICH BRINGS ME TO TONIGHT, MY FIRST DAY BACK AFTER MY TWO OFF.
I GUESS TO BE TOTALLY HONEST, I WAS JACKED BEFORE EVEN GOING INTO THE PRISON. BEFORE WE START OUR SHIFT, WE SIT OUTSIDE SMOKING AND TALKING AT THE PICNIC TABLE AKA GOSSIPING AS THOSE WHO DON'T JOIN US CALL IT. ANYWAY, I WAS TOLD THAT ONE OF THE INMATES THAT MY PARTNER WROTE UP, HAD HER MAJOR MI$CONDUCT TOSSED OUT, THAT THE DISCIPLINARY CHAIRMAN SAID IT WAS STUPID SHE WAS EVEN WRITTEN UP TO BEGIN WITH.....THE INMATE CALLED MY PARTNER A "FUCKING NIGGER BITCH". I WAS FURIOUS! I WAS STANDING IN THE BREIFING ROOM GETTING ANGRIER THE MORE I THOUGHT ABOUT IT. I SAID TO NOBODY IN GENERAL, THAT I COULD CALL THIS CHAIRMAN A "COCKSUCKER" IN FRONT OF MY PEERS AND I SHOULDN'T EXPECT ANY RAMIFICATIONS FOR THOSE ACTIONS, HMMM?

SO YEAH, I HAD SOME MAJOR ATTITUDE GOING BACK TO THE BLOCKS.

NO SOONER DO WE GET OUR HEAD COUNTS DONE AND CALLED OUT. THIS LOVELY BITCH STARTS UP ABOUT HOW I LIED IN HER MAJOR MI$CONDUCT THAT I WROTE ON HER. INSTEAD OF TELLING HER THAT I WOULD NOT DISCUSS IT WITH HER AND THAT SHE COULD TAKE IT UP AT HER HEARING, I TRIED TO CLARIFY HER MISCONCEPTIONS ON MY WORDING.
SHE WASN'T LISTENING AND SHE ONLY OBSESSED OVER CERTAIN WORDS AND NOT THE COMPLETE SENTENCES. SHE PICKED AND CHOOSE WHAT SHE WANTED TO READ OFF TO THE OTHER INMATES.
I WAS LIVID AT THIS POINT AND I THREW THE WICKET UP AND TOLD MY PARTNER TO CLICK ME THROUGH THE GATES!
I WENT IN SCREAMING AT HER. I TRIED REACHING THROUGH THE BARS TO GRAB A HOLD OF HER, BUT SHE BACKED UP. SO WE BOTH JUST STOOD THERE SCREAMING AND FUCK YOU'ING EACH OTHER. HER CELLY TRIED CALMING US BOTH DOWN AND THE OTHER FEMALE IN THE CELL NEXT TO HER, WHO HAPPENS TO BE IN FOR HOMICIDE, EVEN TRIED TELLING ME TO JUST BACK OFF, TO JUST LET IT GO.
IT DIDN'T LAST LONG, MAYBE 3 OR 4 MINUTES TOP, BUT 2 GIRLS HAD ANXIETY ATTACKS, AND IT STARTED THE REAL TROUBLE MAKERS TRYING TO INCITE A RIOT.
IT WAS AWFUL. I LEFT THE BLOCK WHEN ANOTHER PARTNER CAME IN AND I WENT OUT TO THE BASE STATION TO LET MY WHITE SHIRTS KNOW WHAT TRANSPIRED.
NOTHING HAPPENED SO FAR TO ME. MY WHITE SHIRT TOLD ME IT WAS STUPID THAT I'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO WRITE HER UP ON ANY MISCONDUCTS.
THAT'S TRUE TO A CERTAIN EXTENT, BUT I'LL PARLAY WITH THE BITCH TO GET HER PISSED, THEN HAVE ANOTHER OFFICER WRITE HER UP.

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