Yesterday I tried all day to reach Dawn so that I could get Kitana to come over. I thought I'd get some back to school shopping started and wanted to get Kitana a few outfits because there are so many great sales going on.
Towards evening, I called Vu to ask if he had Kitana and where Dawn was. He said they all went to Baltimore to visit an 'Uncle Joey'.
It felt as if someone put a knife in my heart and a huge punch in my stomach.
I don't know what she is doing and why she is doing it.
If she wants to hate me, fine, she doesn't need to seek justification. Just hate me.
I don't understand her, I don't know what more I could have done for her. I sometimes wonder if she is trying to compare her upbring with that of her husband's so as to not make him feel so awful.
I just don't understand. I love her dearly.....but obviously we both feel a desire for so much more than the other is willing to give.
Stepping back and looking at her life as an outsider, I see she loves romance and glitter. I have never looked at life with anything but the black and white. There is no gray area of romance for me to acknowledge. As for glitter...pfffft...I'm for to practical for such nonsense.
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